hatred p2
another story. I don’t why I have that much hatred these days.
It’s about the PPA thing. It does de-motivate me a bit, but it annoys me more. As usual, I’ve been the English teacher for some of my team-mate and because of that I managed to discover this annoying fact.
The team-leader (that I don’t have good perception on) identified him as the potential for high performer for this cycle, for our team and he’s been asking to tidy up his PPA form and making it more convincing.
For such, I’ve been asked by him, helping to tidy up the thing and then I got the chance to read all the things that he put on his PPA.
It stroke me like hell, reading all the things he claimed on his PPA, and to my notice, what also the team leader wants him to elaborate more.
I wish he didn’t ask me at first place as revealing this…sort of betraying.
The team leader gave him 1 and 2 for most of his KPI in order to promote him for such overall rating. What came to my disappointment is that, most of the KPI are shared KPI which technically should reflect my rating, and I only got the base.
Plus, he claims one of the Department KPI that led by me, and been applauded by the team leader very much, instead of I get shit. I thought I was the one that chasing all the submission, coordinated and led the meetings with those technical experts, negotiating and been fired like hell by region’s planner, spending my night oil waiting and compiling all those packages, while what he did was build a model, stay quiet in the meeting etc. ? And while his task done by the date of submission, I’ve been the one who has to carry the tag as the ‘focal’ person until today…even I have to time travel for sake getting all the previous years submission, which technically not under my custodian.
The team leader used to say that we need to do something different that makes us stand in eyes of the management…but this guy? Sigh…I don’t know why the team leader wants to promote him very much. Honestly, I thought nobody in our team now really shine for such. I came to the conclusion that, may be because he’s the only team member that has good rapport with the boss. Even, his working ethics was like hell ….by being a consistent latecomer, doesn’t know the priority, yada…yada...yada… (the team leader also has the same ethics)
I feel like calling him a #%@#ass...
Should I pray?
Sometimes people just don’t know what they deserve and take things for granted.
Now I feel de-motivated, for I’m worried what would be my chance to make different if I were to stay longer with the team and the same team leader.
Not to claim that I’ve good rapport with our previous department boss, which I only managed to work with him for less than 4 months, but I do wish that he’s still here, as he’s ones that has believe and faith in me.
Not like my current team-leader…who doesn’t care or aware on how much things I’ve done for the department, how good I’ve been as staff, how much effort I put to make sure I can catch up with my steep learning curve, how honest I’ve been in judging for what I deserve…sigh.
It’s about the PPA thing. It does de-motivate me a bit, but it annoys me more. As usual, I’ve been the English teacher for some of my team-mate and because of that I managed to discover this annoying fact.
The team-leader (that I don’t have good perception on) identified him as the potential for high performer for this cycle, for our team and he’s been asking to tidy up his PPA form and making it more convincing.
For such, I’ve been asked by him, helping to tidy up the thing and then I got the chance to read all the things that he put on his PPA.
It stroke me like hell, reading all the things he claimed on his PPA, and to my notice, what also the team leader wants him to elaborate more.
I wish he didn’t ask me at first place as revealing this…sort of betraying.
The team leader gave him 1 and 2 for most of his KPI in order to promote him for such overall rating. What came to my disappointment is that, most of the KPI are shared KPI which technically should reflect my rating, and I only got the base.
Plus, he claims one of the Department KPI that led by me, and been applauded by the team leader very much, instead of I get shit. I thought I was the one that chasing all the submission, coordinated and led the meetings with those technical experts, negotiating and been fired like hell by region’s planner, spending my night oil waiting and compiling all those packages, while what he did was build a model, stay quiet in the meeting etc. ? And while his task done by the date of submission, I’ve been the one who has to carry the tag as the ‘focal’ person until today…even I have to time travel for sake getting all the previous years submission, which technically not under my custodian.
The team leader used to say that we need to do something different that makes us stand in eyes of the management…but this guy? Sigh…I don’t know why the team leader wants to promote him very much. Honestly, I thought nobody in our team now really shine for such. I came to the conclusion that, may be because he’s the only team member that has good rapport with the boss. Even, his working ethics was like hell ….by being a consistent latecomer, doesn’t know the priority, yada…yada...yada… (the team leader also has the same ethics)
I feel like calling him a #%@#ass...
Should I pray?
Sometimes people just don’t know what they deserve and take things for granted.
Now I feel de-motivated, for I’m worried what would be my chance to make different if I were to stay longer with the team and the same team leader.
Not to claim that I’ve good rapport with our previous department boss, which I only managed to work with him for less than 4 months, but I do wish that he’s still here, as he’s ones that has believe and faith in me.
Not like my current team-leader…who doesn’t care or aware on how much things I’ve done for the department, how good I’ve been as staff, how much effort I put to make sure I can catch up with my steep learning curve, how honest I’ve been in judging for what I deserve…sigh.
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