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aku tensen sangat this week.

first supposed by tonight aku dah berada di paka, as i've planned the leave since early of the month. esok birthday mak aku and i thought going back earlier, i could treat her dinner ke apa.

in fact my baby jazz nye skirt calar and need to be sprayed.

hell...early morning boss dah kacau cakap ada meeting ari khamis, on the exercise that i am the focal. sigh...sapala rajin sangat pegi arrange forum bodoh tu ari khamis. dah la buat petang...and i'm very sure akan dragged sampai kul 7pm nye like previous forum.

then belum sempat aku nak cakap kat boss yang aku cuti that day, dia pulak cakap yg dia on-leave that day. what the fuck? no wonderla ...

aku tensen sangat this week.

engineers yg bijaksana kat department aku memang culas dan tak boleh dipakai. asal ajer came to this exercise..semua menggelupur nak siapkan...soalan berlapis macam budak skolah tanya macam mana nak update template. team leader pulak masing2 lepas tangan...tak forward and push anak buah siapkan keje diaorg untuk aku compile. even aku antar email dgn font merah requesting for the thing disubmit by yesterday so that aku boleh compile and buat analysis...only few ajer yg betul2 faham. bodoh la diaorg nih...apa susah sangat? sebab data yang aku mintak bukannya korang kena korek dalam lubang kubur ke apa...if not why ada yang boleh kasi on the spot kat aku? iskkk..dahla aku tunggu sampai kul 7...x semua antar lagi...macamana aku nak buat keje aku?

aku tensen sangat this week.

dahla dgn kerenah siput dan lembabnya colleague aku antar data, si mamat yg jadik focal person utk department plak..sibuk ajer dtg telling ada additional thing on the template etc. sorryla...aku dah giving up so much of my time this week..jgn harap aku nak layan.

aku tensen sangat this week

x dapat cuti, boss on-leave, kerenah colleague yg lembab...keje bertimbun...

hmmm...

tadi asan sametime plak dgn aku. tetiba mintak maaf sebab tak sempat melawat aku. and dia cakap dia busy sgt.nak jer aku cakap yg kita ada pilihan . busy ke tak busy ke...kita sentiasa ada pilihan.

aku dah mula risau..sebab teringat apa yang aku belajar masa ILS ari tu...on the needs to us investing in bank of human heart.

aku dah start ignore my bro. and i'm afraid he's gonna be like ucop.

anyway, since aku tgh tensen and ada rasa kecik hati dgn mamat nih..terus aku tak layan sametime dia.

then aku antar email ajak tengok f1 bmw sauber booth sebab aku dapat free passes, tapi sebab aku tgh tensen...aku invite dgn sacarstic nye.

now..i feel regret with i did to my bro. isk isk isk.

terlalu ikut perasaan...

arghh...aku rasa semua nih sebab aku tak dapat cuti. aku penat. aku penat. aku penat!

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