as the curtain falls... (good bye 2006)
the 12 things was briefly reviewed and I don’t sense any punch as for about it. In a way, I just realized that after half of the year, as too many things put me off from looking into the mirror of my good self, I don’t feel the eagerness to really tracking them.
I don’t know why, but I do believe, everything seems to be a bit gloomy after half of the year. I’m not sure why I put it in that way. May be passing the mark of 25, seems like a curse to me? Sigh…
May be, a lot of things happened this year unintentionally hurt me.
While confronting my memories back then, I feel sad to know how fragile most of the good things that I’ve been holding before. I faced the lost, the broken, the ugly, and it hurts me as those are not the real defeat that would mend me to maturity. It hurts me as it portrays how weak I’ve been to believe in dreams and hope that much while the real world is changing violently out there.
May be this is the other side of the coin that I have to carry with me when choosing this path.
I’m drowning. I feel lost in solitude. I don’t feel the strength to carry on life some times.
The good thing still there, but I feel like holding myself back on it as I’m afraid it’ll hurt me later on.
I don’t know what the real highlights are.
2006, I was thinking it’d be the beginning of something good for me. But then, most parts of the journey, it’s been like in a poker game and I lost badly.
Good bye 2006.
I don’t know why, but I do believe, everything seems to be a bit gloomy after half of the year. I’m not sure why I put it in that way. May be passing the mark of 25, seems like a curse to me? Sigh…
May be, a lot of things happened this year unintentionally hurt me.
While confronting my memories back then, I feel sad to know how fragile most of the good things that I’ve been holding before. I faced the lost, the broken, the ugly, and it hurts me as those are not the real defeat that would mend me to maturity. It hurts me as it portrays how weak I’ve been to believe in dreams and hope that much while the real world is changing violently out there.
May be this is the other side of the coin that I have to carry with me when choosing this path.
I’m drowning. I feel lost in solitude. I don’t feel the strength to carry on life some times.
The good thing still there, but I feel like holding myself back on it as I’m afraid it’ll hurt me later on.
I don’t know what the real highlights are.
2006, I was thinking it’d be the beginning of something good for me. But then, most parts of the journey, it’s been like in a poker game and I lost badly.
Good bye 2006.