aging
Hey. It’s been long since my last entry and again the speed of time flying is tremendous, as we are now approaching the December already. The curtain of 2006 will be fall soon, and as part of my routine, reviewing the year has been, kind of a habit and silent therapy for me.
Anyway, I’m in Labuan at the moment, attending this 5 days training at Sheraton. As well staying at there alone in my spacious deluxe room, without complimentary internet and now watching what the idiot box could offer me.
Oh…I just, finally, bought myself a lappie. It’s a Presario v3000 that I’ve been eyeing for ages. A perfect companion. I’m in love with her now. Finished in black, with scratch resistant surface, running on AMD Turion x2 and GeForce 6150, I couldn’t ask more for the price that I’ve paid. May be, an upgrade to 1024 mb ram later on. Hehehe. It’s a budget laptop, but still worth of specs. And my bro Asan named her Gemuk. Siot. Hehe.
feeling 24Ok. It’s kind of funny thing, but it’s a dolphin free. People tend to mistakenly thought I am a younger bloke than I am.
When asan told me that he mistakenly thought that I was somewhere around 24years old guy, instead of passing the 25th mark already, I just had a glance to think back, once I told ucop how much I felt like turning my biological clock 2 years back and relive it back. It’s kind of a coincidently cliché thing to relate this thing, but anyway it’s kind of true.
Being among them, have myself more enthusiasm and energetic on a lot of things, and put a lot of joy for me in doing it. The Boset group is the new bunch of people that I met and befriend lately, and they are those youngsters who just started to know the early days of ‘career-life’. While having they carrying all those college life mindset, it never set me apart to enjoy my time with them. I’ve been kind of always emotionally attached to group of friends that I could fit in, and they’ve been so far.
I mean to know how much we have touched Soorian’s life, kind of flattering as being 11 years in navy sort of set him apart from the joy of being in a circle of friends who accept no matter who you are. I feel afraid sometime to realize such, as I will always the one who exaggerate and then have the tendency feeling being turn down later on. Never mind, friendship is unconditional in a lot of things, but then again I must say I’m happy befriend with them.
Somehow, even as much as I’m trying to enjoy my time befriend with them, I always had the some kind of feeling that holding me back. The feeling that keeps telling me, those years is over for me and I should move on. It’s normal feeling that bugging me may be as seeing all my friends even my juniors moving to another stage of their life etc.
I think 2-years stint in college has really an impact to my life and makes me feel like I want to turn my biological clock back. It’s just my bare conclusion as I keep thinking, what makes me feel 2 years of my life sort of missing and I would blame that college years.
being 26While now I’m attending the course here in Labuan, I started to feel older. Wait, not that. I feel like I’m lingering among those seniors people, even pak wan actually is younger than me. It’s not the same feeling I had while with those Boset people and I hate actually as this kind of situation kind of put me in quite a solitude thing.
I mean, I couldn’t fit in into their mode and subject of conversation. Pathetic and even know that I am the one who should grow up a bit, but then I don’t feel like being with them. I’m such a denial.
Anti-socialHaving said things above, I would conclude that I prefer to attend or go any meeting, conference, training etc. where everybody don’t know everybody so that, the ice-breaking is fair for everybody. Like what I had while attending the Boset training. Or else, being such a phlegmatic bloke, I will find myself hard time to enter other people circle. Nightmare.
Anyway, I’m in Labuan at the moment, attending this 5 days training at Sheraton. As well staying at there alone in my spacious deluxe room, without complimentary internet and now watching what the idiot box could offer me.
Oh…I just, finally, bought myself a lappie. It’s a Presario v3000 that I’ve been eyeing for ages. A perfect companion. I’m in love with her now. Finished in black, with scratch resistant surface, running on AMD Turion x2 and GeForce 6150, I couldn’t ask more for the price that I’ve paid. May be, an upgrade to 1024 mb ram later on. Hehehe. It’s a budget laptop, but still worth of specs. And my bro Asan named her Gemuk. Siot. Hehe.
feeling 24Ok. It’s kind of funny thing, but it’s a dolphin free. People tend to mistakenly thought I am a younger bloke than I am.
When asan told me that he mistakenly thought that I was somewhere around 24years old guy, instead of passing the 25th mark already, I just had a glance to think back, once I told ucop how much I felt like turning my biological clock 2 years back and relive it back. It’s kind of a coincidently cliché thing to relate this thing, but anyway it’s kind of true.
Being among them, have myself more enthusiasm and energetic on a lot of things, and put a lot of joy for me in doing it. The Boset group is the new bunch of people that I met and befriend lately, and they are those youngsters who just started to know the early days of ‘career-life’. While having they carrying all those college life mindset, it never set me apart to enjoy my time with them. I’ve been kind of always emotionally attached to group of friends that I could fit in, and they’ve been so far.
I mean to know how much we have touched Soorian’s life, kind of flattering as being 11 years in navy sort of set him apart from the joy of being in a circle of friends who accept no matter who you are. I feel afraid sometime to realize such, as I will always the one who exaggerate and then have the tendency feeling being turn down later on. Never mind, friendship is unconditional in a lot of things, but then again I must say I’m happy befriend with them.
Somehow, even as much as I’m trying to enjoy my time befriend with them, I always had the some kind of feeling that holding me back. The feeling that keeps telling me, those years is over for me and I should move on. It’s normal feeling that bugging me may be as seeing all my friends even my juniors moving to another stage of their life etc.
I think 2-years stint in college has really an impact to my life and makes me feel like I want to turn my biological clock back. It’s just my bare conclusion as I keep thinking, what makes me feel 2 years of my life sort of missing and I would blame that college years.
being 26While now I’m attending the course here in Labuan, I started to feel older. Wait, not that. I feel like I’m lingering among those seniors people, even pak wan actually is younger than me. It’s not the same feeling I had while with those Boset people and I hate actually as this kind of situation kind of put me in quite a solitude thing.
I mean, I couldn’t fit in into their mode and subject of conversation. Pathetic and even know that I am the one who should grow up a bit, but then I don’t feel like being with them. I’m such a denial.
Anti-socialHaving said things above, I would conclude that I prefer to attend or go any meeting, conference, training etc. where everybody don’t know everybody so that, the ice-breaking is fair for everybody. Like what I had while attending the Boset training. Or else, being such a phlegmatic bloke, I will find myself hard time to enter other people circle. Nightmare.