my memory : leaving 25 ... (p5)
I just moved to my new house. Finally we managed to get a new unit for rent at melati utama condo on the last day of my attachment period in KL. It’s been years I left this entire house hunting thing, and the one that I had for the past few weeks kind of put me under a lot of pressure. Sounds exaggerate, but it was just that we spent most of the time traveling in the car, making the calls etc. and the success rate was low that expected. I guess the reason we chose to opt for melati condo as it was the best that we had at that time.
No regrets, I guess as for the price that we pay now it is much better than renting the flat near s2 wangsa maju that cost us the same, but with a terrible condition. Mirul told me that I was kind of fussy and choosy when I mumbled that I feel like I’ve been kind of demanding to get a good house etc. hehe…and he was right about the experience studying oversea put us in a lot of high expectation etc.
We had mirul’s brother joining us and also naim, a new friend that we met while house hunting, which I knew through Reza’s friend. Our condo happens to be in my brother, Ucop’s condo neighbourhood. Well actually his family’s condo just on the next block. ‘Berjiran jugak kita’, he once quoted.
It was a very basic condo with nothing in it and I have a big task to fill in the unit to make it more homely. I think I’m gonna be an ikea freak later on as I’ve been browsing the catalogue so far, thinking on buying a bedroom set for myself, a sofa and few other stuff for the house. Anyway, I just bought an LG refrigerator last week for the house and cost me few hundred bucks.
95/96
They said it is a honeymoon year, but I don’t think so. To enter upper form thing such a big task for our batch as the teachers sort of put that much expectation especially on my class, where all the 8A’s students were grouped. For the first few months…well I think it dragged until nearly end of the year, we heard so much stories and complaints about our class. We were like the main subject in the teachers’ office. It happened that we had to call us a long meeting and discussion among us to delve what was the problem, the reason, why the teachers were kind of having this bad impression on our class. Few of the class reps went to meet the teachers personally on this matter etc. Our class academic performance was not that bad…but still we didn’t get the exact answer. Even I don’t clearly recall how the matters solved.
We were back in the same class that year. I mean me and faiez and somehow we were getting closer and I think I was serious with her that year, even still put some borders and concerns like I always did. But it was a quite a good year for both us to spend a lot of time together etc.
My academic performance wasn’t quite good that year as I was sort of trying to adjust myself a lot. I mean people expect me to excel that year, but it happened that Hisham then came out from the closet been the number 1. hehehe…he was really good. Somehow it was quite annoying to hear Bullah mentioned to me on his theory about ‘buah mempelam cepat masak…cepat gugur’ etc. hehe..
That year, me and bullah were getting serious with the debate thing as cikgu jamil really focused on us etc. as Safwan was in the f5 already. That year PPM was held in MCKK and we managed to cruise till 2nd round, I guess, before we lost to KISAS which was then thrashed by the STAR, the champion of that year. Then, it was my first experience being chose in the Sultan Pahang Cup team. We lost in the final to this Sekolah Perwira Jaya in obviously biased and unfair finale, from our and most people perspectives. But I was delighted to be chosen as the State Best Speaker for that year.
With the koop thing, as there were no f5 seniors in the board, they have chosen me to lead the board members that representing students. It was my best year with KOOP as I think I did a lot of thing with the team. The minggu KOOP thing was a big event that year, we had a trip to Angkasa and few schools, took part in the KOOP quiz etc. And for that matter, I was chosen as one of the recipients for Khidmat Cemerlang Award. That award normally given to the f5 students that showed outstanding performance in leadership etc. and the other recipients were that year school’s Head Prefect and BPPI’s Head. It was such an honour to me, but I know that it was kind of been a big discussion among the seniors for me to have such an award, earlier. But hey…I devoted a lot of my time for KOOP that year…I even turned down the offer for being prefect etc. just as I wanted to concentrate on the KOOP thing. And guess what till now, when my schoolmate meet me, be it seniors or juniors, they’ll remember me as razeif’s koop, if not the debater…hehe.
96/97Our final year in SEMSAS, my best years there I guess. I learnt a lot of thing bout friendship, bout appreciate the chances given, bout success, bout failure etc. I don’t know why, may be it was the time, maturity starts knocking my door and let me understand the flow of things that happened etc.
My academic performance wasn’t that good in the beginning. I failed in one of the papers and it’d been kind of a discussion among the teachers on my result. Technically, it was because the Pidato Piala Diraja thing, where I spent my March monthly test preparation for the pidato thing. Even while sitting the papers, I took the time to remember my speech etc. hehehe…and I only managed to get the 3rd place at state level. I was quite disappointed with that as I did everything, the text, the preparation by myself and I wanted to repeat what mukhriz done previously, being in the finale in KL etc.
This year PPM debate, they’d changed the format to parliamentary style. Me and Bullah where the only seniors with 5 years experience and we were that dedicated that year practicing as we wanted so much to be in the finale at national level. For us, it was the greatest achievement that we’d been dreaming since we joined the debate club. We did a lot that year, to practice the junior, to form a good team etc. Alhamdulillah, we were the East-coast Zone Champion with me as the best speaker. We thrashed our brother’s school SHAH Pekan in a very tough finale. I still remember the victory over them was very sweet. To see how the school’s PPM contingent celebrated our success etc. It was a wonder.
However, we only managed to cruise up till semi-final of national level as we lost to SMSAH. It was the end of my PPM journey, I have regret for losing in that semi, and it was due to some emotional breakdown and conflicts among the team members which we had prior to the semi-final event. We did well, however, in the Sultan Pahang Trophy, where we regained back the champion’s title from the same school that stole it from us on the previous year. I was chosen as the State Best Speaker again.
I regained back my touch in the academic prior to the trial of SPM and Alhamdulillah, did quite well in my SPM that then rewarded myself the lifetime opportunity to study in oversea.
The Schoolboy Days
5 years passed me that fast, that was what I felt when I spent my last few days in SEMSAS alone in the school great hall. Collecting and look back all the things that happened for the past few years. It was such a wonder twist, where at first how hard I wanted to get out from the school as felt being trapped in the prison, but then turned to be where all the hard-to-let-go memories lived.
FriendsBullah was my bestfriend there. We’ve been through a lot together since F1. He was my rival in a lot of things. Faiez was my soul mate. The one that I wanted to spend most of my time with, the one that I loved to hear the say, and watch the smile etc. Once, we went out with cikgu Borhan to buy some stuff for our PASEFO club, cikgu borhan couldn’t get his eye off us as he mentioned that ‘I know the gossip bout you both’…we laughed. Members of 1 & 2 Teratai -- It was a privilege to know and have you guys around, on those days where we were that young and naïve.
F5 batch-97 – we were quite a troublesome batch from others’ perspective, but we proved ourselves were not junk. We went through a lot of hard time that year, but we managed to be and came out proudly as the class of 97 graduates. Even deeply, sometime I feel you guys were bit off in term of maturity – the way you guys think, take things unserious etc...Pardon me.
Teachers.
Thank you very much for all the good deeds you guys had shown and taught me. Even there were low points where me and others kept nagging and complaining bout you guys, we learnt in the end on the reality of the ‘berkat’ of your good deeds and willingness to teach us become a better person. I am here now on the path that you guys once enlightened when I was at the beginning of the journey.
My years in SEMSAS, even it wasn’t much that I can say how it carries so much lessons for myself standing today, but it was a chapter when I started to learn bout being independent, living on my own self, making decision etc. while at the same time making the mistakes as being naïve and too young for such things etc.
Do I miss those days? Yes.
Do I want to go back to those days?
No. It was just an experience worth to remember and appreciate, not to live it back.
No regrets, I guess as for the price that we pay now it is much better than renting the flat near s2 wangsa maju that cost us the same, but with a terrible condition. Mirul told me that I was kind of fussy and choosy when I mumbled that I feel like I’ve been kind of demanding to get a good house etc. hehe…and he was right about the experience studying oversea put us in a lot of high expectation etc.
We had mirul’s brother joining us and also naim, a new friend that we met while house hunting, which I knew through Reza’s friend. Our condo happens to be in my brother, Ucop’s condo neighbourhood. Well actually his family’s condo just on the next block. ‘Berjiran jugak kita’, he once quoted.
It was a very basic condo with nothing in it and I have a big task to fill in the unit to make it more homely. I think I’m gonna be an ikea freak later on as I’ve been browsing the catalogue so far, thinking on buying a bedroom set for myself, a sofa and few other stuff for the house. Anyway, I just bought an LG refrigerator last week for the house and cost me few hundred bucks.
95/96
They said it is a honeymoon year, but I don’t think so. To enter upper form thing such a big task for our batch as the teachers sort of put that much expectation especially on my class, where all the 8A’s students were grouped. For the first few months…well I think it dragged until nearly end of the year, we heard so much stories and complaints about our class. We were like the main subject in the teachers’ office. It happened that we had to call us a long meeting and discussion among us to delve what was the problem, the reason, why the teachers were kind of having this bad impression on our class. Few of the class reps went to meet the teachers personally on this matter etc. Our class academic performance was not that bad…but still we didn’t get the exact answer. Even I don’t clearly recall how the matters solved.
We were back in the same class that year. I mean me and faiez and somehow we were getting closer and I think I was serious with her that year, even still put some borders and concerns like I always did. But it was a quite a good year for both us to spend a lot of time together etc.
My academic performance wasn’t quite good that year as I was sort of trying to adjust myself a lot. I mean people expect me to excel that year, but it happened that Hisham then came out from the closet been the number 1. hehehe…he was really good. Somehow it was quite annoying to hear Bullah mentioned to me on his theory about ‘buah mempelam cepat masak…cepat gugur’ etc. hehe..
That year, me and bullah were getting serious with the debate thing as cikgu jamil really focused on us etc. as Safwan was in the f5 already. That year PPM was held in MCKK and we managed to cruise till 2nd round, I guess, before we lost to KISAS which was then thrashed by the STAR, the champion of that year. Then, it was my first experience being chose in the Sultan Pahang Cup team. We lost in the final to this Sekolah Perwira Jaya in obviously biased and unfair finale, from our and most people perspectives. But I was delighted to be chosen as the State Best Speaker for that year.
With the koop thing, as there were no f5 seniors in the board, they have chosen me to lead the board members that representing students. It was my best year with KOOP as I think I did a lot of thing with the team. The minggu KOOP thing was a big event that year, we had a trip to Angkasa and few schools, took part in the KOOP quiz etc. And for that matter, I was chosen as one of the recipients for Khidmat Cemerlang Award. That award normally given to the f5 students that showed outstanding performance in leadership etc. and the other recipients were that year school’s Head Prefect and BPPI’s Head. It was such an honour to me, but I know that it was kind of been a big discussion among the seniors for me to have such an award, earlier. But hey…I devoted a lot of my time for KOOP that year…I even turned down the offer for being prefect etc. just as I wanted to concentrate on the KOOP thing. And guess what till now, when my schoolmate meet me, be it seniors or juniors, they’ll remember me as razeif’s koop, if not the debater…hehe.
96/97Our final year in SEMSAS, my best years there I guess. I learnt a lot of thing bout friendship, bout appreciate the chances given, bout success, bout failure etc. I don’t know why, may be it was the time, maturity starts knocking my door and let me understand the flow of things that happened etc.
My academic performance wasn’t that good in the beginning. I failed in one of the papers and it’d been kind of a discussion among the teachers on my result. Technically, it was because the Pidato Piala Diraja thing, where I spent my March monthly test preparation for the pidato thing. Even while sitting the papers, I took the time to remember my speech etc. hehehe…and I only managed to get the 3rd place at state level. I was quite disappointed with that as I did everything, the text, the preparation by myself and I wanted to repeat what mukhriz done previously, being in the finale in KL etc.
This year PPM debate, they’d changed the format to parliamentary style. Me and Bullah where the only seniors with 5 years experience and we were that dedicated that year practicing as we wanted so much to be in the finale at national level. For us, it was the greatest achievement that we’d been dreaming since we joined the debate club. We did a lot that year, to practice the junior, to form a good team etc. Alhamdulillah, we were the East-coast Zone Champion with me as the best speaker. We thrashed our brother’s school SHAH Pekan in a very tough finale. I still remember the victory over them was very sweet. To see how the school’s PPM contingent celebrated our success etc. It was a wonder.
However, we only managed to cruise up till semi-final of national level as we lost to SMSAH. It was the end of my PPM journey, I have regret for losing in that semi, and it was due to some emotional breakdown and conflicts among the team members which we had prior to the semi-final event. We did well, however, in the Sultan Pahang Trophy, where we regained back the champion’s title from the same school that stole it from us on the previous year. I was chosen as the State Best Speaker again.
I regained back my touch in the academic prior to the trial of SPM and Alhamdulillah, did quite well in my SPM that then rewarded myself the lifetime opportunity to study in oversea.
The Schoolboy Days
5 years passed me that fast, that was what I felt when I spent my last few days in SEMSAS alone in the school great hall. Collecting and look back all the things that happened for the past few years. It was such a wonder twist, where at first how hard I wanted to get out from the school as felt being trapped in the prison, but then turned to be where all the hard-to-let-go memories lived.
FriendsBullah was my bestfriend there. We’ve been through a lot together since F1. He was my rival in a lot of things. Faiez was my soul mate. The one that I wanted to spend most of my time with, the one that I loved to hear the say, and watch the smile etc. Once, we went out with cikgu Borhan to buy some stuff for our PASEFO club, cikgu borhan couldn’t get his eye off us as he mentioned that ‘I know the gossip bout you both’…we laughed. Members of 1 & 2 Teratai -- It was a privilege to know and have you guys around, on those days where we were that young and naïve.
F5 batch-97 – we were quite a troublesome batch from others’ perspective, but we proved ourselves were not junk. We went through a lot of hard time that year, but we managed to be and came out proudly as the class of 97 graduates. Even deeply, sometime I feel you guys were bit off in term of maturity – the way you guys think, take things unserious etc...Pardon me.
Teachers.
Thank you very much for all the good deeds you guys had shown and taught me. Even there were low points where me and others kept nagging and complaining bout you guys, we learnt in the end on the reality of the ‘berkat’ of your good deeds and willingness to teach us become a better person. I am here now on the path that you guys once enlightened when I was at the beginning of the journey.
My years in SEMSAS, even it wasn’t much that I can say how it carries so much lessons for myself standing today, but it was a chapter when I started to learn bout being independent, living on my own self, making decision etc. while at the same time making the mistakes as being naïve and too young for such things etc.
Do I miss those days? Yes.
Do I want to go back to those days?
No. It was just an experience worth to remember and appreciate, not to live it back.