talk to the hand ...
I’m tired. Being the focal for my department budget exercise really annoying. My boss mentioned this will be assessed for my PPA, and I feel a bit torn judging his intention via his words in one of the meeting we had before. The mail at first sound more comforting, like telling me this is the chance for me to show my credibility in coordinating such exercise, while his words either intentionally or not, envisaged a mild threat i.e. I’ll be the one to blamed if this exercise been screwed up. What the heck! But to think back, I have a mixed feeling to see the outcome from my vague judgment on my new boss. May be I put that much expectation or may be I tend to get things too personal.
Crap, as I got the confirmation from him to attend the meeting and start my task as the focal. For a start, this is the thing that I’ve been wishing not to be involved as I feel too new to the workplace. The first meeting made totally like a dumb, and before I could start asking for explanation and assistance etc. more and more tasks come along the way. I had to move faster, do this and this while I reached certain point feeling that ‘this is not right’.
I would love to see this responsibility tasked to me as a big ‘trust’ from my new boss, as I’m quite new etc. , but small issues that popped suddenly along the way make me feel really annoying. I don’t know why I keep mentioning it is annoying, but I guess I have the feeling that certain things actually should’ve not happened at first place. The burden is on me right now, to vacuum back all the mess that been swept under the carpet by others for the past few years, get it?
Well. It’s not that I don’t like my current workplace, after all the hard work to get here etc. I am far more energetic and happier, and it’s up to me to fill my own journey on the path that I’ve chosen now. Anyway, I guess this is a common workplace mumbling habit that I have, but tell the truth, I feel good about my new chapter. Cliché’ eh? People sometimes asked me, is this what you want, when I mumbled about my current ‘task’ and I don’t feel fair to give the straight answer and it’ll be like judging the whole thing. I put them straight that I’ve never been better, even it is obviously denying the ‘current’ fact, but it is the best and diplomatic answer – I can’t judge my success in this new journey just on the few steps that I have taken. The road is still long, I see it that way, and I’ve been putting tones of positive attitude to comfort and boost my motivation on this matter.
Even Sinatra admitted the few regrets that he had in life, so it is not a sin if regret has it place in me, sometime in the past, today or in the future. zzzzzzzz…..
Crap, as I got the confirmation from him to attend the meeting and start my task as the focal. For a start, this is the thing that I’ve been wishing not to be involved as I feel too new to the workplace. The first meeting made totally like a dumb, and before I could start asking for explanation and assistance etc. more and more tasks come along the way. I had to move faster, do this and this while I reached certain point feeling that ‘this is not right’.
I would love to see this responsibility tasked to me as a big ‘trust’ from my new boss, as I’m quite new etc. , but small issues that popped suddenly along the way make me feel really annoying. I don’t know why I keep mentioning it is annoying, but I guess I have the feeling that certain things actually should’ve not happened at first place. The burden is on me right now, to vacuum back all the mess that been swept under the carpet by others for the past few years, get it?
Well. It’s not that I don’t like my current workplace, after all the hard work to get here etc. I am far more energetic and happier, and it’s up to me to fill my own journey on the path that I’ve chosen now. Anyway, I guess this is a common workplace mumbling habit that I have, but tell the truth, I feel good about my new chapter. Cliché’ eh? People sometimes asked me, is this what you want, when I mumbled about my current ‘task’ and I don’t feel fair to give the straight answer and it’ll be like judging the whole thing. I put them straight that I’ve never been better, even it is obviously denying the ‘current’ fact, but it is the best and diplomatic answer – I can’t judge my success in this new journey just on the few steps that I have taken. The road is still long, I see it that way, and I’ve been putting tones of positive attitude to comfort and boost my motivation on this matter.
Even Sinatra admitted the few regrets that he had in life, so it is not a sin if regret has it place in me, sometime in the past, today or in the future. zzzzzzzz…..